I don’t quite understand the title, but whatever lol.
I’m really interested in Sound Horizon these days, or Sanhora for short. Hmm..Sanhora is a lovely name indeed, maybe I will have a little girl named like that,too .
Sanhora’s music, is a mixture of madness, grudge, painful memories. And the tone brought me to peace, such peaceful feeling that I could never find in anyone else’s music. Not even Maaya Sakamoto’s or Kanno Yoko’s. I just love Sanhora…
Somehow, the story about Mar-san kind of makes me sad. I wish for him to be a demon, for eternity. Being able to sleep peacefully forever is…nostalgic. Nostalgic and sarcastic..
Mar-san, the one who died young, but was able to keep his promise, and was revived. Although he could not remember why he lived, he just went and helped the seven princesses, and I love that.
He helped calming all the beautiful but were mistreating girls, although he knew nothing about himself.
He calmed that selfish doll of him, Elise, for she was a bad child.

I hate bad children,though *smirk* And with that attitude, she should just disappear *smirk*

Ahh~~ The story about mother Holle was cute, very cute indeed. The innocent girl who was forced to jump into the well, just like Mar-san. But thanks to him, she did not die, and she even got a revenge on that evil family. You have done a lot, thank you Mar-san.

And the fact that you came back, for Elisabeth, I truly admired that. You could have rest in peace, but you came back, for a simle promise. That is what I love about you.

Sempai asked me to cosplay Sanhora with him. And I got to play Violette’s role. Such lovely flower. The purple flower which represents death. I love you, and only you, violet~

And I love you, Sanhora-chan~

Nowadays, many students choose to attend schools or universities outside their country. In my opinion, studying abroad is a great way of gaining knowledge. Why ? Because you can have the opportunity to study with people from different countries and the chance to experience different types of teaching methods.

Like I said before, the chance to study with students from different places in the world is very valuable. By studying with them, you can also have the chance to develop your knowledge about other countries. You can learn about the culture, the language, and many other interesting things. The best thing is that you can learn those knowledge thanks to your friends. For example, my sister who has studied in Canada for 5 years, returned home with knowledge not only about the major she chose to study in university, but also very interesting things about other countries. And her knowledge got her a very good job at a big company. But the main point that I want to state here is the value of studying with all types of people. You can learn new things everyday.

The other good thing that you can get from doing this is the experience of studying with different methods. For example, in America, you sit in circles. The reason for that arrangement is because the teachers want you to see your classmates’ faces. The main purpose in the American’s class is to help students interact with each other. But in Japan, you sit in rolls, and you always have to look at the board and the teacher. This way of sitting focus on the ability to acquire new knowledge. And it requires the student to fully concentrate on the lesson, not interact with other people like America. For students who have the chance to study with different types of teaching techniques like these two ways above, it is really a rare opportunity.

Like I said above, studying abroad is truly a great way to gain knowledge. People who have the chance to study outside their country, take that chance right away. Because in my opinion, it really is great to attend schools outside your country.

Please bring me back to life

Please don’t leave me there , alone

Please don’t….

Or else I’ll kill you

For my pride

For my selfishness

For my obsessions

For MYSELF

So please save me

Please bring me back

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I do not understand anything . Or maybe I’m getting older and older ? I tried to care about you , but you just went and messed up everything . Child , do I really have to do this the rough way ? Do I really have to teach you about life ? Do I reaaaaaaally have to do this ?

Then , I should care less . I should not be worrying about something that isn’t important . I should not , right ?

It doesn’t matter , to me . How much pain you have been through , how cruel your fate is , it does not matter .

What matters is my pride . So please do not act so carefree like that , do not try to become an angel , since you are not thing in the darkness .

Age is a number , it does not show anything . What matters is the expirience you have got . And you really know nothing .

Your lack of thinking and maturity , I tried not to care , for a long time , yet it really annoys me .

Do not come before me , and talk like you know everything . I can throw you to hell if I want , I can make you suffer if I want .

I’m not human anymore . Everyone started as a normal human . As they grew up , their hearts weaken … But I did not fail for anything .

I shall take my leave , soon . Before that , do not mess up with me . I’m not challenging you to do this , because this is not just a warning , dear ~ :”)

Really….I hate my family so much….

People who do not know anything , just keep talking , because of something they called ” Pride “

Keeping your ” pride ” then , later pay a high price for you stupid ” pride ” . Really , does it worth ?

I tried to care less , or maybe I did not care at all , their lack of maturity and thinking . Really….

They’re just people who do not know a danm … Yet tried to act like a good-for-nothing-man/woman .

I really do not care , about what happened before I was born , those stories have absolutely nothing to do with me , so I absolutely do-not-care .

Why reminding me all of those stupid things ?

Why telling me this is bad or good ?

Really , it is such a waste of time talking to you .

I do not mean I am mature enough to know everything , I know I’m still young and still lack of maturity .

But really , I know what I am watching .

Lol , this is so ridiculous .

Or should I say stupid enough to laugh at your face ?

I really look foward to those days at Canada …

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I probably will not smile anymore .

Everything I do now , is because of my aim .

I live for my aim , after I finish it , I , soon , will disappear , too .

No regrets .

And I will return . Because of that beautiful sky , I will return .

For the time being , I will try to enjoy myself here , at this hateful place .

Really , people cannot choose their family , their names , and where they were born .

I do not wish to change anything , since my life is really good now but …

If they can change a bit then…

I really have become a selfish little girl who always thinks about herself right ?

Since I’m Aries anyway….Aries with bloodtype O…

Upon a dream

Of a childish girl

There was a city

Up in the sky

It was near heaven

Simply called ” Yuno “

There weren’t many people

Most were phylosophers

But all enjoyed their life

In a city

Up in the sky

A beautiful place

With old streets

And autumn leaves

Where adventurers came

To meet their angels.

 

 

 

Re-read her comments

Didn’t understand it clearly

Well , she was right , I am happy to receive those kind words from you

I do not know what is wrong with my thoughts

Or if I’m not mistaken , I’m too over-exaggerate right ?

I should stay calm , and think carefully

Oh well , I’m an Aries you know

I’m truly .. An Aries with Bloodtype O ~

I have thousands of names . Each name has its own history , and I usually change name really quick . Oh well , here it goes..

1. Tomoyo-chan aka Tomo-chan

I used this back in 2009 . This nickname has lots of memory . I remember using this nickname talking to Alegra-chan about PTS . I was a beginner to designing back then . Remember all the days of laughter . I could cry easily back then , and also mind about things which are not my bussiness . I could laugh about silly things . I could write diary for a whole day long . I remember …. Sennet-kun ….neh..

2. Aruya Archesch , Aruyahime or Aru for short .

Originally , this is a name of a character in a Ragnarok fanfiction . How much I love this fanfiction back then , since I was a shoujo fangirl . The ” Archesch ” part is the family name of a very famous Merchant family in Alberta , in game of course . I used this name for a fanfic which was based on Ragnarok and another fanfic called ” The love for the assassin ” . Also , I used the name Aruyahime while playing Ragnarok . People often called me Aru . Well , Aruyahime was a princess who was very beautiful , gentle , and to-tal-ly lame lol . It will take more time to type down everything about this nickname . So I’ll do it later .

3. Saruwatari Nanami – my name in Japanese

Created this at the beginning of the sixth grade . I really .. don’t want to recall the memories of a shoujo fan . Hmph …

4. Kyoko or Kyo

Latest nickname , perhaps … Ah , I love this one . Kyoko was from a shoujo called Fruit Basket . * okay I know I was addicted to shoujo lol * I met millions of friends with this name ! Oh how much I love it *crying like hell* And Kyo is the short name , since my interest changed . And I’m addicted to trap now . The word ” Kyo ” somehow makes me think about Len Kagamine . Or maybe when I used this name I was a Len-complex . I love this nickname =///r///=~

But now , I want something more … Dark and European style ~

An entry at this late .

I should have gone to sleep the moment I finished my essay .

Yet , I stayed .

I really want to write something .

Dear White-chan~ I know you will never know about this entry , and everything I think about you but … I just want to write these feelings down .

You are such a good friend,dear~ Vin-nee taught me that , I should not believe in people so easily but … You are wonderful . Nothing much to say about you , since White-chan is a talented person , I could say you are perfect , somehow . Eversince that stupid day , I was wondering what should I do with this meaningless life . I won’t die , of course . But I didn’t know how to confront you and all the people whom I loved so much . Then , you just pm-ed me , and it was fun talking to you,dear . I know I don’t deserve to say I love you . But I still want to say it so much . You gave me so much , but the selfish and pathetic me couldn’t do anything to pay you back . Sorry and thank you .

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I’m working on a small project . Well , I have thousands of projects but little time to do , but I keep asking for more and more .

This is a story about an omnyouji . Should I call her ” The Greatest Omnyouji of all time ” ?

Her name is Kyoko Hinazuki /ok she’s me lol . She doesn’t have any connection with this world .

Kyoko is very powerful . She used charms to cast magic , sometimes she used strings,too . Oh well , nothing much to say about her power .

Kyoko liked to play with her opponent . She always thought about how useful this opponent will be , and she started playing while she was thinking .

And yet , she was innocent , somehow . I wouldn’t use the word ” innocent ” ,  but ” yandere ” . Kyoko would kill every single living being that betrayed her .

I want to think about her appearance more before I start drawing comics about her . But first , she will  have short brown hair , and she wears a hakama .

I’m having too much characters . But well , I will always love my children .

And tomorrow’s project : draw a long picture about my friends at school / lol school is just awesome , but tests aren’t

Ah , and on Woman’s Day I received a gift , for the first time in my life . Mia-san said he and I were like kintergarden kids lol . Well , being innocent is great , right ?

The candies he gave me were delicious . The jokes he told me at the end of the breaktime were so sweet . School is getting a lot more interesting thanks to this . How much I love being a seventh grader !

I’m getting used to writing long essays,too . But this is not an essay , right ? According to auntie’s book , this is called ” journal writing ” . Oh well , I’m just going to keep writing journals in English for practicing . This is so much fun ! Time to sleep neh , nights ~

Remember tomorrow’s project , dear~ Neh neh neh~

 

 

I leaving…without leaving any traces back …

I never did live a true life here…I am just going to…vanish..without any remain…

Oh well~ Who cares ~ Since my life has already ended~

I’ve grown , not enough to fight in the real life , but enough to think about what is truly important in my life .

A favorite quote of my very dear man , ” Trying to please everyone is the first step of becoming a failure “

And yet , I’m still trying to please every one . How uncool is that ?

I’ve lost all my hopes and love , for my dearest one . Since then , I’ve already lost everything .

My heart has been frozen . All tears have been lost . And now , I’m going to fall asleep .

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Dear the greatest omnyouji , the next time you wake up , in the hand of your dearest , please promise me that you’ll smile .

Please promise me that you’ll live a happy life without any nostalgic moments .

Please promise me that you’ll forget about that person , and never care about love .

Please …… realize that …. Love is such a childish joke . And even if it is not a joke for some-certain-people , it is just an unbalanced thing , and it doesn’t suit you , milady~

I love you .

Life is so much better thanks to you guys . Thank you ~

Isaliz-chan~ aka Sakura-chan ♥

You are one of my best relatives . Back when we were young , you were more like a childhood hero to me . Your drawings inspired me a lot , also your passion for drawing . Almost everything in my life , was inspired by you . My drawings , my relationships with friends on VnS , they were all thanks to you . Love you so much,dear~

Kat-kun * or should I say my very masochist cat :”> *

Big brother ~ How much I love you and your drawings ~ You are so straightfoward that sometimes I feel kind of annoyed , but thanks to you , I’m improving , day-by-day . Thanks to your kindness , I was able to keep up with life . You know , after what happened with the-person-who-I-think-you-should-know , life was dark . And somehow , your kind words relieved me . I felt that even when that person is gone , I still have you and my family . Lots of love ♥

Gingetsu-chan ~

We’ve just met recently , at the manga festival last summer . Somehow , you got into my mind immediately , dear Prussia-kun-who-wore-Russia’s-wig . After that festival , we haven’t talked together for several months . But you still remembered who I was , and so did I . That really made me happy . You were also the person who gave me lots of advices about love , since I’m still young and new to that . You were going to ask that-person about our relationship , how sweet of you ~ Dear , I will not say how much I love you , because I haven’t done anything for you , but you already gave me a lot . But happily , I’ll always wish for your happiness with you dear lover-chan ~

Last but not least , Mia-san ~~~

I love you ~~~~~~~~ Dear ~~I cannot tell you how much I love you ~~~ You were my very first online friend , and you were the best ~ I do not think of you as a friend now , but a sister . And I truly wish that I was your little sister,too . You helped me a lot , both playing and studying ~ I really admire you , sis~ I could tell you almost everything . Family stuff or even love ~ Neh , you are much of a hero to me . And danmit , I love you so muuuuuch~~~

Family is just that simple . Each of us are different ,  but somehow we are connected ~ But well , this is my family in my head . I don’t really think Mia-san knows Gingetsu-chan =] Oh well~ Let me dream a little bit moar =]